when you said [MUST]

never force yourself to do something that you don't really like.
i told it to myself.
but i can't do that.
responsibility forced me
expectation forced me
and i know
i can't regret and replay when i did something wrong
and i can't stop going on when i feel sick of this life
and now
i force myself to accept
and enjoy
enjoy being a human, a girl, an 14-year-old pupil, a girl guides, a jurujual, an AJK, a person who was being expected.
and being a friend of you =)